Hasting's First Valentine's Day

Yesterday was Hasting's first Valentine's Day! To celebrate the day of love Hasting and I got together Chad's Valentine's while he was working! We got him a box of chocolates, a card, tickets to go see Tosh.O in April, and made him a cake! Chad didn't get home from work until close to 7pm, but when he did we had take-out from a delsih japanese restaurant Kimonos, then family time the rest of the night!

Hasting & I also had some Valentine's Day pictures made for Chad. We were going to make something really neat for Chad, but Walmart ruined that idea.. they would't let us take our pictures because I didn't have a copyright release form :/

Here's a few of the pictures we took:

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