Favors for Fischer!

We lost a child, vis miscarriage early August.

As her due date approaches, I have been thinking of how I can celebrate the life she would have had, and a way to help continue a healthy healing process, and also a way that would impact our community as well!

Fischer would have been due on February 9, 2016, and would have been our third child.

I want this day to be a day full of happiness, not a day full of sadness. So with that being said, I have created {Favors for Fischer}.

I am asking that in honor of our sweet Fischer, you reach out to someone (or something), and complete one random act of kindness. Once you've completed your act, please come back to this page and tell us about it! I'd love a day full of smiles and love, and to know that the gift of happiness was created for someone in honor of our daughter.

Please share this. My hope is that it reaches people all over the world, and that somewhere, someone gets a smile on their face from a random act of kindness.

❤️

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