I don't even know where to BEGIN!

So. Or MacBook died, again. I think it's just that time to save up and get a new computer :/ For now, I bum of our awesome neighbors and use their laptop!

I haven't posted in a hot minute. Mainly because of no computer, and because we have been busy!

I feel like I have a ton to post on (and I do), but I'm going to break it up in new posts so I don't have one LONG post!

First things first. I recently just celebrated my first Mother's Day, and man oh man was it awesome! We celebrated the whole weekend! Friday we went to the NC Zoo. It was Hasting's first time, and he did awesome! We took both the stroller and the mei tai carrier. Hasting mainly stayed in the mei tai, but did ride in the stroller a few times. The stroller was more for help in holding the diaper bag, drinks, and gift shop stuff. I know Hasting won't remember the trip, but it was a really fun experience for Chad and I as parents.

We woke up early the next morning and spent the day at Atlantic Beach! It was really nice to have a getaway for the day at the beach! The water was too cold for Hasting to get in, but I dipped his toes in. He did NOT like it, mainly because it was TOO cold. We went our for dinner at a nice restaurant after laying on the beach for the day, and Hasting passed out! We also took Hasting to the sound and got a few pictures there. I have some family in Morehead City that neither Chad nor Hasting have ever meet, so we decided to call and go visit with them. I myself hadn't seen them in over three years. It was such a special moment when my aunt kathy & uncle buddy met Hasting. He loved them! We plan on going back to visit again some this summer!

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Setbacks Over Progress.

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UnSubscribe

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